Oct. 20th, 2026
Hello Ms. Blog! It's nice to meet you. I've decided that I'm going to try journaling before bed every night, and although I know that means I'm supposed to avoid screens I've decided it's too good of an opportunity to share all of my deepest most innermost thoughts with this beautiful woman I know as the internet.
Today I'm feeling... Hmmmm. Stressed, depressed, very sads. I got put on a PIP at work and I'm stressing out about it, mostly because I'm stressing about money but also becuase I'm stressing about failing. I'm also moving really soon, which makes all the money stuff even more stressful! I made the mistake of trying to be a transgender homeowner in her 20s, I should've known that wouldn't work out before I tanked my credit score so hard. U;w;U
I've been thinking about this website a lot lately, which really makes me feel like updating it is just going to be another of my flights of fancy, something of a half-hobby that I'll only commit to for long enough to half finish some things and leave it there. I tend to do that sort of thing :< I don't know! Feeling down on myself today. Question to the void, do you ever feel like you don't deserve to be loved? Like the people around you would be better off if they just moved on and spent time with someone who functioned better? or is this just a severe mental illness thing? I don't know. I want to be swaddled and wrapped up like a big burrito and put up on a shelf. or something. Bluh!!!!
-June